Today is the 31st December 2014.

It's... New year's eve. Sigh, every year this day, for so many years I lost count myself, I would think about New York this day, even if it means day dreaming in the washroom.

Last year, I watched the ball drop via my IPad, and I guess this year it's gonna be the same. No doubt it's just watching from my IPad app, I felt better not missing it like previous years. No doubt it's just me watching myself, at least I know it's something I wanted for so long. 

Sigh, the biggest parties around the clubs; the new year's count down. It seems like I could no longer reach out to these stuffs. Since the pregnancy started, all these seems to be drifting further and faster than anything else. 

They say the grass on the other side always seems to be greener, that's what I can't help but feel right now. 

Sigh... I wanna feel butterflies in my stomach again, I wanna feel excited and looking forward to something again; ecstatic and overwhelm...